Wait for it... Wait for it....

Sex before marriage, we were all taught not to do it, and most of us rebelled. Sex sex sex. It's like the most important thing next to food, water, and alcohol. Well, really it's not. This is just the distorted picture that is painted for most youths and the picture only becomes bigger as we get older. But today, I had decided to tear down the immoral mural displayed in my mind. I no longer want to sex before I'm married. I mean, in reality, where has it gotten me. Nowhere but down the road of a struggling, single mother with more miles on me than necessary (which is none). I'm tired of letting men have joy rides with me and leaving the tank empty. Hell, I still have to make it home to tend to my child that was made in that back seat. My exhaust is exhausted. Rotating my tires and changing my oil isn't getting it. I have to park it.

I have been thinking about this for some time and I have made up my mind. I used to fear that no man would want to court me under these conditions, but I no longer let fear run me. Hell, most of the men who won't stay around without sex won't stay around with it. It's a hard pill to sallow, but with a big glass of acceptance, I managed. I recall telling friends about my decision and they were not feeling it (which is totally ok). I have prepared myself for this response from most people, male and female. "What if you wait until you are married to have sex with the man and then it ain't even good?" Wow. How many times have I heard this? My response is marriage is soooo much more than sex. Sex is just one of the physical aspects, which is not, or should not be, in the top three of importance. Yes yes yes, sex is very important, but if a relationship is based solely on this factor then we are screwing ourselves. And let me point out that most everyone has had bad sex. Not only have we had bad sex, we have had "friends" put in place for sex and the sex wasn't even that good. Why? Because we are looking for something greater than an erection followed by ejaculation. Though true, most don't realize or acknowledge this. But now I have done both, and I have comfortably accepted abstinence. No sex in the champagne room.