The biggest fears about being at a turning point is not only are you turning in the right direction, but you so badly hope that you don’t crash in mid curve. Now is the time for me to make a change. I can no longer stay stagnant. Now I must finally start walking all that talk I’ve been talking. And when I say walking, I mean running. There are things, goals, that I want to accomplish; indefinite goals. Now is the time for me to approach one of them at full speed.
I recently attended an informational to go back to school and so that I can obtain my teaching credentials. The program seems to be a very good program, but it seems just as intense: Night and Saturday classes, internship, assessments, teacher/student training, observations, not to mention… “mo money mo money mo money”. The program actually seems to be a really manageable set- up for the average student. But too bad I’m not the average student. I’m a single mother working two jobs and handling a household. When will I have time to work, go to school, train side- by- side with a full- time credentialed teacher for eight weeks, and be a mother? How will I have enough income to maintain my adult responsibilities and do all these things for school? Within an hour and a half I felt the tension building. It will be a challenge, but I am a survivor. I wouldn’t necessarily call my self a go getter, but when it needs to be gotten, please know that I’m on my way. So during these times I must remember not to lean unto my own understanding, but in all things acknowledge God. Honestly, this is a hard task but I must pray constantly because at the end of the day, I don’t know anything, and I would run myself ragged trying to figure it out. Also, we often have to sacrifice and I would rather sacrifice for a year and a half than for the rest of my life. I must go after the desires of my heart and pray that God will guide my path. This is a lot to process, but the biggest test is, will I trust God? Truth be told, my trust in Him is the only way I will succeed for I am merely man, and every good thing I have is a gift from Him. I pray that not only once I get my credential will I be able to teach, but also as I go through the process of life people can learn from me. I am an example that life isn’t always easy, but with God we can do all things. I am and will continue to be a living testimony. So as I have stated earlier, I am a learner trying to teach and a teacher trying to learn. Wish my luck… no, no, no pray that God blesses me in my endeavor.
I recently attended an informational to go back to school and so that I can obtain my teaching credentials. The program seems to be a very good program, but it seems just as intense: Night and Saturday classes, internship, assessments, teacher/student training, observations, not to mention… “mo money mo money mo money”. The program actually seems to be a really manageable set- up for the average student. But too bad I’m not the average student. I’m a single mother working two jobs and handling a household. When will I have time to work, go to school, train side- by- side with a full- time credentialed teacher for eight weeks, and be a mother? How will I have enough income to maintain my adult responsibilities and do all these things for school? Within an hour and a half I felt the tension building. It will be a challenge, but I am a survivor. I wouldn’t necessarily call my self a go getter, but when it needs to be gotten, please know that I’m on my way. So during these times I must remember not to lean unto my own understanding, but in all things acknowledge God. Honestly, this is a hard task but I must pray constantly because at the end of the day, I don’t know anything, and I would run myself ragged trying to figure it out. Also, we often have to sacrifice and I would rather sacrifice for a year and a half than for the rest of my life. I must go after the desires of my heart and pray that God will guide my path. This is a lot to process, but the biggest test is, will I trust God? Truth be told, my trust in Him is the only way I will succeed for I am merely man, and every good thing I have is a gift from Him. I pray that not only once I get my credential will I be able to teach, but also as I go through the process of life people can learn from me. I am an example that life isn’t always easy, but with God we can do all things. I am and will continue to be a living testimony. So as I have stated earlier, I am a learner trying to teach and a teacher trying to learn. Wish my luck… no, no, no pray that God blesses me in my endeavor.
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